It took too long for them to call back

Its been a frustrating week at work. Besides finding out a colleague is gunning to discredit me and that is what fueled everyone to be extra hard on me, an important advertiser has also pulled out of the most important advertising space there is. His reason: He's not impressed with my first issue and feels that the standard of the magazine has dropped.

It was so hard to hear that, especially after I spent a lot of time pretty much groping in the dark for material. While some of my colleagues helped a lot with giving me ideas on where to look for material, I searched for almost all the editorial content myself. I asked Milo to change the graphics scheme to make it more colourful and vibrant and believe me, its a whole lot more colourful and awesome than it used to be. Milo does awesome work. It was a real puzzle trying to figure out how make the whole thing flow and connect. It was hard to arrange the pieces and each segment so it didnt become horribly repetitive. So, it was devastating to hear that all the work that Milo and I did caused an important advertiser to back out.

64 pages of pure content. NOT A SINGLE AD, and it just wasnt good enough for that one company.

However, after long discussions with Lady Belle, Caramel, Chemical Boy and Sister Lunacy, I've come to realise that they all are right. *thanks you guys. I really do appreciate what you did.* Aaliyah said it pretty well too in her song.

If at first you dont succeed, you dust yourself off and try again.

What else is there to do? Tears wont solve the problem. Being upset sure as hell wont bring in the moolah. So everytime I churn out an issue, I have to ask my readers for feedback. Source for better information and essentially, make sure every issue has substance and colour.

I cant and wont lie down and waste away because one advertiser thinks we're not good enough. We are good enough...and we did one awesome job in putting together a magazine. I know its going to be better this year. I cant promise that we're going to get a barrel load of advertisers for the magazine, but I can promise that I am going to do everything I can to make sure that I bring in the awesome, editorial-wise.

And if you dont like it, well, thats just too damn bad.

*~I see your dirty face
High behind your collar
What is done in vain
Truth is hard to swallow
So you pray to God
To justify the way you live a lie, live a lie, live a lie
And you take your time
And you do your crime
Well you made your bed
I'm in mine~*

::EDIT:: I use the word 'awesome' waaaay too much. And I am on a Fresh Prince of Bel Air overdose.