Reality bites

I spent some time talking to my Caramel earlier and she's all excited with her impending proposal and wedding. I'm excited to be bridesmaid here since she's already asked and I've accepted ever so happily! I can already picture the dress fittings, the frenzied bachelorette party, the crazed partying in general really. Pampers and I are going to go crazy when it comes to the bachelorette party.

Its not for another year or two at least because, as any regular Jane would know, there is a crazy amount of planning and money involved in making any wedding a success. In Caramel's case, there's also the case of the parental meeting..with one set of parentals having to agree to the wedding itself. She's marrying him anyway, but if the parents could just approve and learn to love Señor SeaBass..because he really is a nice guy, then it would truly be a happier event.

But I digress.

With the wedding looming in the near future, Caramel and I have made a plan that we are praying will materialize ASAP. Firstly, a week long (or longer), completely heavenly holiday that consists of beaches, amazing food and a whole night of partying and bullying Señor Seabass. We have to teach this wonderful seabass of a white man all the naughty words in other languages he knows not. MWAHAHHAHA.

I keep wondering where we'll both be in a few years. Will we get to do the things we want? Will we both be exactly where we want to be with those that we truly love? Where will our careers be headed? Will we still be in the same emotionally hurtful situations? Or will we have grown and evolved, learning how to protect ourselves from giving it all away?

I cannot wait to see whats in store for us both. We've planned our lives right down to the T..even to the point of saying that we'll both be socially awesome parents. I may never have kids for a whole range of reasons, as much as I love them...so I cannot wait to be an aunt. Little ones to be spoilt and loved once more.

No more broken hearts. No more pain. No more giving and giving till I have nothing left to save myself.

Optimism. Positivity. Love. Faith.

No looking back.

*~So swallow the knife
Carve the way for your pride~*